it's the ironic & controversial rhapsody of an ambiguous bert

long time no blog

l()nG tIM3 nO blOG!!

stupid blogger couldn't blog on sat nite...hahaz...finally felt the frustration shuya and huiting had....dotz dotz dotz

well had one great slurgin' weekend....went out shopping with shuya and spent near $250 on books, shoes9hush puppies won) & tada!! a new pair of swimming trunks...didn't expect to spend that much coz i haven't even pay G2000 a visit yet!!

oh well new shoes really hurt & i thot i had to go back to taka to change the size but all's well @ e end of ytd...tried to practice a bit of (similar 2 floorball) street bandy-goalkeeper ytd but it's always more diffcult when there are 10 in the court instead of e usual 4 or 6...i dunno...it's only a nomination for me 2 be goalkeeper for the team but there at least 2 implications now that would make it diffcult for me to stay....haiz...dun wanna let anybody down but things aren't always within my control....think jus commit into God's hands i guess....currently still unsure bout' my futur & will i ever serve again...and my temper jus gets the better of me when it comes to tokin' bout my DM..another haiz...

financial's situation not very good...i'm actually in debt to my mum & i'm not the kind who chases peeps who owes me money...academics is very risky...not really working hard or let's jus say the urgency hasn't set in yet...servin' s down although i seriously hope it won't be a permanent thing...personal relationship also struggling here and there..haiz...life's nvr been in more than a mess before....tis mess is even bigger than that one a year ago...

hmm....actually ian's right when he said i really keep mum bout stuff too much...i guess tis jus my nature...it was easier 2 speak up in the past...with 'da 8-gang', lousy, shihui & ms lai...now i guess things have become different...

ytd nite i asked myself, "am i really that afraid of loneliness??" i guess if given the choice i want a soulmate/best friend/brother rather than a girlfriend or a large grp of "hee hee hee hee hee ha ha ha ha ha" friends...oh yes a brother..two sisters drive me nuts...a brother would be nice & fun...someone i can tok to at home...share clothers with...go swimming or gym together...share our hearts...if i had a brother i would nvr want our sibling relationship to turn sour and be those brothers in dramas who plots each other's death...i still remember there was a long period in sec3 life when i was in kinda depression becoz of a lack of buddies...

sigh...

CuRrEn+ SoNg ChOiC3: I Get On My Kness by Jaci Velasquez

Almost finishing Mountain Rain...i can't wait to start on Sufficient Grace but it would be different i think since it isn't a biography le...finally made it to service ytd & boy, am i glad...it felt good to be in God's hall again...i really feel refreshed after missing service for so long...although i must say fellowship's gettin' hard as the weeks pass....

Verse: Matthew 6, The Parable of the Sower (NIV)

posted by bert @ 12:04 PM