it's the ironic & controversial rhapsody of an ambiguous bert

The clock on the laptop screen showed 11.36pm. "Damn I missed it by less than 10 mins, it's all that game's fault. Why did I ever played it tonight?? And it was not even a good game," thought Sebastian.

He sat there in front of the screen, transfixed by the message he saw and conflicting emotions began to rise. He was perplexed by what he was feeling - all the cause of a few simple words.

"Do I want to go??" he asked himself, "do I really want to go??"

The message was simple enough, but Sebastian has a bad habit and that is he tends to overreact and be oversensitive when matters often seem so lucid. "Read between the lines" was what his brain was telling him.

Sebastian thought first of the pros, if he go, he would be seeing someone he had taken quite dear to for a while now.

But apparently, the cons far outweigh the pros. Putting aside what Sebastian's family thinks and what his friends would say, Sebastian could find many more reasons for him not to go. Did he truly want to set himself up to get hurt again?? Does he gets a kick out of seeing that special someone in another guy's arms instead of his or is he plain psychotic?? Does the word "extra", albeit being a local slang, mean anything at all??

Even if all these were threw out the window, what would Sebastian's purpose be in going at all?? Would it be just for fun, as friends do?? Or would it be that Sebastian still had hopes about their relationship??

The answer was quite palpable moments later. He wanted to go, but all logic and sense dictate otherwise.

Sebastian settled down, and started to cry without tears.

posted by bert @ 12:00 AM