it's the ironic & controversial rhapsody of an ambiguous bert

aches

Aches

Things are barely improving in my life. Sigh, I wonder when stuff will ever fall back nicely into place. Right now, I am still that outward happy but inward upset person. I now guess this is partly because of an incident two years back, during that vanilla period. People who know what I am saying know what a jerk I was those few months. I became the most irritating porcupine who went around pricking everyone with my gloominess and affecting others moods too. Nobody deserves to have to be burdened by somebody else problems unless there are special relationships involved, like perhaps family. To me, I have chosen to minimize burdening my friends with my heartaches.

Next week is semestral project presentation week and I still have not finished my report. I was originally planning to finish it by today but unforeseen circumstances came up earlier in the week that caused a disruption of schedule. Note that I am not blaming anyone. I am blaming myself because I should have known better than to let personal matters affect schoolwork.

Saturday is near and I am still unsure of whether am I going to swim at that private pool of kill or not. For one, I like swimming at his place a lot more than yck swimming pool but he is after all having O levels soon. Maybe I should just try to put up with those disgusting old men. Besides, I may not run into any at all.

And yes huiting, I got your message. Since I most free I organize chalet right? But I am not a member of NTUC, so is Costa sands alright?

Current Song Choice: Let The Rain Fall by Hilary Duff

I may have decided upon this pathway but I hardly feel refreshed or revived in any way. What is still lingering in my heart is something known as heartache. I wonder how long am I going to take to recover. Pray hard that my faith will continue to stand firm and not unwaver should anything happens. I long to be looked upon as somebody who is fit to serve. I know and understand that now I shall have to start from scratch and I am not complaning. I know what has to be done and I am willing. Lord, please make my heart willing and let it stay willing.

1 Corinthian 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

posted by bert @ 1:41 AM