I've been wanting to write about chalet and things at work but life's been so hectic and different now that I hardly have time to pen down my thoughts properly. Well, hopefully I'll get to do it soon.
Tonight at the cafe, I saw someone who looked rather like you walked in. Actually, if my memory did not fail me, that particular customer is not a first-timer at the cafe. I guess the presence of that customer reminded me of you, but I have no idea why was it only tonight did I caught the physical & facial resemblance. My heart did skip a beat, but only a beat. I did not have the time nor was I given the chance to stand there and reminise but I did recall that my first time going to the cafe as a customer myself, not a student or waiter, was with you. I have so much to say to you but I not even sure will I ever have the chance to make known my thoughts and feelings to you. I miss you, sometimes for no reason at all. And I'm still trying to understand that different people look for different things; that you'd probably never find what you wanted to in me.
Today is my 18th birthday. Finally I turn the age where buying alcohol and cigarettes is legal and if I get convicted of any felony, I get thrown behind bars instead of some dark "gansterly" boys home. (You go to jail bad boy!!)
Anyway, my birthday is not exactly turning out the way I had hoped it would be. Of course, I had foresee that other than the 7th of Dec being a typical boring day, it could be a lousy day. More often than not reality is cruel to us; 7th of Dec is a lousy lousy day. (lousy x 2, or perhaps more)
I'm going through some major family crisis. It's in fact the biggest crisis I've ever faced in my entire short life of 1.8 decade. Forgive the cliche but my entire world fell apart and came tumbling down when I received that one little phone call made by my youngest sister on Monday night and worsened by the second little phone call, this time made by my uncle, on yesterday night.
I even saw you online and I thought perhaps of Daylight Saving Time or Greenwich Mean Time or whatever stupid time thingy it is, it's probably 6th of Dec over at where you are. I told myself perhaps that was the reason you did not wish me anything, not happy birthday nor even a simple "hello". I think I sound pretty silly. I guess you had really forgotten.
