3.34am - late night, early morning, the graveyard hours.I sat at the space between my bed and study table, lookin' at the laptop screen, at a particular window of a single singular photograph. I wished I had saved your photos in my folders or had them available offhand, but instead, in a pitiful bid to restrainst myself, I made the choice not to. And during moments of weaknesses, those few short minutes when my thoughts and very self became uncontrollable, those painful seconds of missin' you, I will log on to the internet and I will reminise.
Sometimes, the tears come.
Other times, they do not fall.
Tonight, a few dropped in silence of the melody of a song. One that just may be apt enough to depict my heart. (Or as Joey of "Friends" put it - my warm aortic pumps. So not funny)
The times were short, yes, agonizingly short.
I had always thought of Time as an enemy, one that always managed to have the upperhand in whatever battles I choose to partake in. At this trice, I wish I can turn back time. Definitely not stop time because it would be extremely inane and purportless without you around, without you beside me. I wish, and I wish with all my might that I can freeze myself back in time.
Meagre email correspondence, this phrase ringed in my ears. You first spoke those three words to me when you were describing your relationship with another, now I realise I can simply quote you to describe my relationship with you. Meagre it may be, I cannot not admit that everytime the mail comes in, a surge of warmth flows through me.
Hope perhaps??
The time now is 3.59am, a minute short of 4am. I took 25mins to write this.
Give it a thought before you look at the answer below. Hehe~
(lifted from someone else's blog)
Boys A and B are students of Miss X, whose birthday is on the Nth day of the month, M.
Both students know that her birthday falls on one of the following dates:
March 4th, March 5th, March 6th
June 4th, June 7th
September 1st, September 5th
December 1st, December 2nd, December 6th
Miss X only told A the month and B the day. She then asked them both if they knew her birthday.
Here's what the boys said:
A: If I don't know the answer, B would confirm not know.
B: At first I didn't know, but I do know now.
A: Oh, then I know the answer too.
What's the birthday of Miss X?Answer to the quiz:
First and foremost, you have to look at this question from 3 perspectives: A, B and yourself as the reader.
Also, you have to assume that all 3 are intelligent. At least, that was what I assumed myself to be, which was a pretty simple thing to do.
So, how do you tackle this question? Simple. By process of elimination.
Miss X told A the month and B the day. Now, if you look at the days provided from the choices, you'll notice there are two unique days: 2nd and 7th.
Let's see how I solved it:
1. Look at the very first statement that A said: "If I don't know the answer, B would confirm not know."
From this very statement, I eliminated all the dates from the months of June and December. Why? Assume Miss X told A her birthday's month was December. If that is the case, how can A then proclaim that B would confirm not know the answer? At this point in time, it is true that A doesn't know the answer because it might be Dec 1st, Dec 2nd or Dec 6th. But how does he know if B does not hold the day to be 2nd? Remember 2nd is a unique day. Similarly for June, assuming Miss X told A her birthday's month was June, she could easily have told B the day to be 7th, which is the unique day as well.
Therefore, if indeed the month is either June or December, A will not be able to make that statement that B would confirm not know.
2. Now we're left with the months of March and September.
Take a look at what B said next: "At first I didn't know, but I do know now."
Remember the assumption that these boys are intelligent? B would have followed the thought process of A and know that the months cannot be June or December.
However, upon following A's train of thought, he manages to derive at the answer. From this, I eliminated the dates March 5th and September 5th. Why? If at this point in time, B does hold the number 5, he will also not be able to proclaim that he knows the answer now. Because obviously, if he holds the number 5, A can hold either March or September and Miss X's birthday is still pretty much in the air. The fact that B now knows the answer means March 5th/September 5th cannot be the answer.
3. Now we're left with the following 3 dates: March 4th, March 6th and September 1st.
What does A say next? "Oh, then I know the answer too."
Once again, as the intelligent reader, you will know that A has also followed B's thought process and came up with the remaining 3 dates to choose from. Now, if A was holding the month March, he would not be able to proclaim that he knows the answer too. Because obviously, it can either be March 4th or March 6th.
Therefore, the answer has got to be September 1st.
Time: 1.35am
Place: My bedroom
I was finally able to cry.
My tears could finally flow.
I even felt nauseous.
I wanted to throw up.
I coughed and choked.
I felt sick.
I felt sick at being who I am.
I felt sick at being what I am.
I keep deluding myself ever since you left.
I lost the fight, defeated by a mere reminder of you.
I have no idea why did I fall for you, how did I fall for you.
If I could, I would have wish that we be together. But so what??
I often chide other people for treating themselves inferiorly but right now, I feel like a damn lousy piece of trash.
All because... ...I'm in love... ...with you... ...
one-winged bee
"he say this bee wanted to woo another bee.. that's why he's holding one flower in his hand.. then he flew for a very long distant.. becos he's only left with one wing.. "
My friend sotsot was recounting the tale of a one-winged bee to me. Of course, there was a dainty little flower in the hand of the bee. Since when do bees have hands, you ask?? Since when will bees hold flowers in their hands, you ask?? Since when does a bee woo another bee with flowers in their hands, you ask?? Well, none of what were mentioned are valid. Simply put, a love story centered around a bee, yes only one bee, not two, does not have to be logically sound.
Back to the tale of the one-winged bee. But basically sotsot's friend who told the tale did not give the 2-sentence story a conclusion. Alas, it dawned on me that it came down to yours truly to finish the so-far-not-very-romantic-story.
"Pain emanated in the left shoulder of the bee. Having lost one of it's wing, flying had become a task that required painstaking effort. Hovering in the air, the bee contemplated the journey ahead. It had hoped to be able to get a glimpse of it's goal and the future it promised. Truly, things are not to be. Having took flight many days ago when it decided to embark on this quest for love, the prospect of it finding what it had held, and is still holding, true seemed bleak.
The plucky one-winged bee persisted in this treacherous journey, filled with hot thermals and great air turbulences. (Haha, sounds more like an airplane.) Whenever night fell, the bee could only spend its time in solitude, quietly wishing for the other bee to appear before its very eyes.
Dawn broke, the one-winged bee once again took to the skies and venturn forth. The dainty little flower, with it's pink petals and green stalk, was still in its hands. Will it ever find the other bee, you ask?? Will it ever give up on love, you ask?? Will there be a happy ending, you ask??
We may never know, but one thing is for sure, you cannot fault the one-winged bee for the mettle it has showed and it's perseverence."
