it's the ironic & controversial rhapsody of an ambiguous bert
Friday, January 23, 2009
This is a promise not just to Thomas & Jason L, but essentially, it's a promise to you and to myself - that I will not become the person whom I hated and feared and I will not go down the path of not treasuring my life.
a posture that has become rather familiar to me now - your elbows propped against the railing and you shift your weight forward, your head held low as you nonchalantly look to your left and right, to the casual passer-by it would seemed as though you were randomly surveying your surroundings, then you would look up and when our eyes meet, your face would break into the most charming and dazzling smile ever, a smile which I like to think that (or at least pretend) you flash only for me. oh ya how can I forget the green tea, always the bottle of green tea.
I do not know which is worse - the agony of the body ache induced by the fever or the agony of not being able to tell the one you like that you are sick.
I haven't been able to stop crying since; I'm sure the story of Mew & Tong had touched many of us in different ways.
"To all the loves that bring us to life."
If I said that I wrote this song for you Would you believe me? It might not be as well-written or beautiful Like other songs I want you to know that a love song Can't be written if you're not in love But for you, my dear I wrote this song so easily
You might have heard hundreds or thousands of love songs They might be meaningful But they are meant for anyone But when you listen to this song A song that's written for you only If you understand the meaning, then our hearts Will be together as one
CHORUS Let it be a song on the path we walk together That only has voices of you and me Together as long as possible Just like a line from a poem As long as you have love, you still have hope Every time your love shines in my heart I can see my destiny
There are so many truths in love And in the past, I spent a lot of time Searching for its meaning But now I just know Whenever you are near I know that if life is a melody, you are the lyrics That give it meaning and make it beautiful
CHORUS
CHORUS
There's a path for us to walk together And there are voices of you and me There's a path for us to walk together side by side And there are voices of you and me
I usually don't bother with resolutions for the new year because I know I'm probably not disciplined enough to follow through anyway; but well someone important enough to me asked about my resolutions (although I have a nagging sensation that it was just courteous small talk) and his question actually got me started thinking about what do I want to achieve in 2009.
So I thought to myself, "why not?"
But it's always important to start humbly and not bite off more than I can swallow so my resolutions must be pragmatic, necessary, life-changing and feasible.
1. Be nicer. (Haha already this first one sounds like a stretch!) Frankly, I'm a bitch. I admit that I'm not a very nice person and if someone steps on my tail, he/she will probably be on the receiving end of my bitching for a month or so. Therefore it's imperative that I learn to curb my venomous tongue and treat people in a more gracious manner. But of course, there is still a line here so I must not become pretentious - a hypocrite is not any better.
2. Since we're on the subject of tongue here, I also need to really learn when to keep my big mouth shut. This few weeks I'm feeling the detrimental effects of what my gossiping has done to not just my own personal life but also to the lives of my friends around me. Things meant to be kept secret should never be disclosed. It's pointless to regret when now I've ruined someone else's life and caused strains to his relationships with his friends. Reminder to self: it's really okay to be quiet and just listen. They say empty vessels make the most noise, I don't have to be in the limelight all the time.
3. Cutting down on clubbing and cutting back on expenditure. Guys I'm serious about only clubbing once a week and doing other healthier stuff on the weekends. Being club royalty shouldn't be a goal at a time when we are supposed to tighten our belt.
4. Getting my driving license. I've been putting this off for the past 3 years and it's about time I actually show at the tests instead of wasting the booking fee.
5. Have my own life. I think I should really give some thought to filling up my life with activities that I've always wanted to do. I want to go back to my piano lessons, I want to learn ballroom dancing, I want to hit the gym more (and get my butt in shape) and I want to return to baking.
6. Now the last one is probably the toughest and the most ludicrous - stop being such a slut and believe that I can be happy being single. Sure I miss the times when I had someone going to bed together with me but I can still go to Cold Storage and shop for groceries alone, go out for runs alone and cook in the kitchen alone. Point is, I can still do all of those stuff by myself and still be happy. The trick I believe is to be contented with what I have instead of dwelling on what I don't.
